» posted on 3:55pm - December 14 2009 | posted by Nemo Metis
current mood: tired
Ok, so what's new...? I may have a job working in a warehouse (joy.) The DWP (benefits monkeys) have stoppped my benefits because their doctor is paid to say, i mean, thinks there is nothing wrong with me.
I'm also not doing well with the sleeping thing. It's not so much that I can't sleep, it's that i really don't want to, because i don't like my dreams. I sometimes can't tell the difference betweent he dream realm and the real world, and i'm afraid of losing myself in my dreams. I become something else in my own head, and i commit the most terrible atrocities, but my doctor's answer is for me to wait until i can see the shrinks. Next august. I'm thinking a new quack is in order.
I've also got everything happening on friday. There's a wedding i really don't want to go to, because it's just too messed up. It's also one of my best mates birthday's. And i'm meant to be meeting Bel 60 miles away. On top of all this, I may, or may not be working friday (fuck knows how that will work, because i'm really not ready to be working yet, silly people at dinner parties) and for lack of a better word, i'm brasseck. Absolutely skinted.
on the other hand, we did win one of the quiz league's charity cup's last night. Yippee.
Fuck.
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7:29pm - December 14 2009i know what you mean about the dream thing.. i tend to go to sleep around dawn now, because with it being so bright, i don't sleep as deep, therefor i don't dream. it sucks because i'm exhausted all the time.. but i don't want the nightmares/dreams. sometimes i think the things in my dreams happened in real life and i'll find myself getting confused over it.
i hope things start evening out for you.. i'd say 'get better' but i hate when people say that to me, because it feels kind of unattainable. i just hope for eveness.
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